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I Wanted To Kill Myself Because There Was Nobody to Help Me – Halima Abubakar
Nollywood actress Halima Abubakar always says that she has had a tough time in the media – especially social media – and that for the longest time she was depressed as a result.
Now the actress has also revealed that one of the triggers for her depression was also her financial state and that things once got so bad that she sadly considered suicide.
In a chat with Punch Newspaper, she reveals:
On depression: There were a lot of things that were wrong with me and led to my depression. I was angry, broke, people lied against me and they were also using my name to lie. I was deceived by the people I loved. I was seriously broke at the time and I had lots of responsibilities.
On finances: There were many charity projects I was involved in and I was doing everything with my money. Everything just got to me at the same time and I felt fed-up.
On considering suicide: I wanted to kill myself because there was nobody to help me. It happened two years ago and it also occurred last year. I thank God I did not kill myself because I realised that nothing is worth it. I was upset with myself when I got back to my senses because the people you want to kill yourself for do not really care about you. It was a terrible phase in my life.
On her boyfriend not really helping: He was not helping matters. I wanted somebody that would listen and not say that I was lying or exaggerating the extent of what I was going through. Whenever I tell him I am sad, he wants to give me money but it is not all about money all the time.
On being spent emotionally: I said I was broke but it was not only about money. I was broken emotionally. If there is no hope, I feel I am broken. I needed a listening ear. The definition of broke is relative but Nigerians think it is only about money. Money was also involved. The first major problem I had was money; then I was also emotionally broken.
You can read more from her interview with Punch Newspaper here.
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