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Chude Jideonwo: I am raising N10 million to build a Centre for young people dealing with Depression & Trauma. Let me tell you why



I am very effusive person. Those who know me closely know that, even though that’s not the image that filters into the public.

I just sent a mail to one of my team members saying, “My heart burst with warmth at your mail” and he responded, “Awwwwwnnn…Chude! ”. Because that’s how I choose to live my life these days – with emotion, with feeling, with delightful goofiness, and with the fullness of myself. I shared that with you, because it really just makes me smile.

I walk around the office with bare feet because what does it matter; I scream, “Osas!” at the top of my lungs whenever I visit RED where I used to be CEO because our receptionist, who is also one of our administrative associates is one of my favourite people in the world; I hug people every time I can; I gush over my partner every chance I get; I take random photos with my mother anytime she visits; I tell people they hurt me even if they think I am more powerful than them. I say a lot of please, thank you and I am sorry, because it makes me feel connected to others more fulsomely. I laugh, cry, and love, very fully.

I began to do this – to begin the journey to becoming my truest, ‘whole-est’ self – many years ago, when I decided I would be unhappy and fearful no more, and I would find joy. I would live life on my own terms, because I finally figured out that that’s what this really is about; that I could really do that, despite the risk and the doubt and the fear. That I could really live my truth, and do whatever the hell my heart felt was right and nourishing, and…good.

But it wasn’t always like this.

I am almost ashamed to say this now because I had no excuse. My parents were not rich, but they were not poor. They sent me to good schools. They had a marriage that was difficult sometimes, but they stayed together because of me; it was a good marriage, and they never projected pain or trauma unto me. My life has had no abuse of any sort (not even verbal abuse by my mother), and I have been loved and validated by my parents every day of my life.

Yet even with all this reinforcement, when I left their protective arms and went into the world, it frightened me. There was so much lack of love and warmth and good faith, and care, that I quickly learnt that I couldn’t be open with my feelings, I couldn’t be vulnerable with my fear. I had to be well put together, perfect, else someone would have a go at me. I grew up in this mortal fear of being hurt, and of being myself.

And that often led me to unhappiness, and to anxiety and to clinical depression now and again. I was depressed over broken relationships, over unwanted weight, over business rejection, over being broke, over losing a pitch or a competition. I wrestled with inferiority and insecurity, even though I had no reason to. Just because the world wasn’t a safe space, wasn’t a warm place.

Many of you reading this, you know what I am talking about. You know how you have (or hopefully, had) to hide your true self, your true feelings, your fears and doubts, because you don’t feel anyone cares, or you don’t want to be the ‘softie’ in a hard world. You had to learn to survive, rather than truly thrive.

These days I ask myself: How do people who were raped, who were abandoned, who were emotionally and sexually abused, who were victims of divorce, who grew up in abject poverty, how did they survive the world? How did they cope? How do they manage?

Ever since I started talking to my team about joy three years ago, began to teach others from 18 months ago, and began to do this as my life’s work a few months ago, I have seen more things that have broken my heart. So many are in so much emotional and mental pain, and they just have no one to talk to.

I ask people to send me their responses to my daily newsletter, The Daily Vulnerable (you can sign up now on and I make sure to read them every week. The things I read about bullying, and abuse, and hurt, and pain, and loss, and fear…it’s…People. Need. Help. People just need someone to talk to, someone to listen, someone to say a kind word as they continue their journeys, someone that confirms to them what they feel is normal, it’s human, and it’s alright.

And I know this, because I have the quantitative data as well as the stories from the people I meet every day at our masterclasses, at my speaking events, on my social pages, in my email inbox – our communities, our society, especially here in Nigeria, are too hostile, too negative, too harsh. People are suffering and they have no one to turn to.

People are dealing with abuse (oh my goodness, is there even one young woman who hasn’t been somewhat sexually abused by wretched men in Nigeria?), trauma, depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and they have nowhere to go.

I was shocked when my new friends at SheWritesWoman and Mentally Aware Nigeria told me they have been trying unsuccessfully to raise money to build walk in centers and get toll-free lines that people can reach out to without judgment, without being preached at, without being scolded.

Where does a young person walk into today if they are suffering depression or anxiety and want someone to talk to?

Yeah, nowhere.

So I decided to put myself on the line, and raise this money from you, and other people like you who read this. I could harass brand managers, or companies, or beat down the doors of rich friends to do this, and avoid the burden of putting myself out there. But remember what I said about living bravely? Yes, putting myself out there – where I may fail in raising the money, because this is not an urgent call for a person who has cancer, for instance – is risky, but so what?

I want this money to be raised by the public. I want all of us together to raise this money for Mentally Aware Nigeria and SheWritesWoman, so we can prove to ourselves that our humanity matters, that our emotions matter, that our society can heal itself even if it takes us a while. The process of the public doing this together is part of the idea. For us to be human, together.

Today is my birthday. And this is the only gift I really want. For us to raise a minimum of N10million to build this center. The full accounts of this fundraising and how it is spent will be published online, so you can see where your money goes.

Thank you for helping me do this.

May your days be filled with love and joy.

To donate, please go right away to or pay into Joy Incredible, 0053065417 EcoBank and please make clear that donation is for The Joy Hub.

Jideonwo is a storyteller, using the research and evidence on human flourishing to inspire new narratives about politics, markets, faith, identity and society in Africa. He is a co-founder of RED, which he ran for 13 years before stepping down in December 2017. One of its companies, StateCraft Inc. handled communication for the Muhammadu Buhari campaign in 2015 and has worked in elections in Ghana, Kenya, Liberia, and Sierra Leone.


  1. Miracle Offorma

    March 16, 2018 at 10:45 am


  2. Nonso

    March 16, 2018 at 12:16 pm

    This is amazing, I hope it will be spread out across the country and not limited to one part of the country

  3. jokobaba

    March 16, 2018 at 12:51 pm

    Much needed. Well done Chude!

  4. Weezy

    March 16, 2018 at 1:58 pm

    I like this idea a lot and commend you for supporting it.

    I notice you buried the lede deep down. The summary is that 2 reputable organisations want to develop a mental health walk in centre, and you are helping them to raise the funds. I kind of wish you had highlighted their work more.

    That said, hope they are successful.

  5. Julia

    March 16, 2018 at 3:10 pm

    Well done Chude!!!

    This is a step in the right direction.

    It is important to have centres where emotive people can have access to immediate talk
    therapy and possible treatment.

    Thank you for being selfless.

  6. Amazing Grace

    March 16, 2018 at 5:36 pm

    I almost cried whilst reading this. Being Nigerian and living in this country is hard. Life is generally hard and sometimes, you are defeated. But the pressure to be strong is too much. We need support like this. I am going to donate and I’d also love to get regular updates on the progress. I hope it takes off and people embrace it. I hope volunteers and funds are made available. Wonderful project; God bless you.

    • Patty boo

      March 16, 2018 at 9:05 pm

      “Pressure to be strong” #word#

  7. ude

    March 16, 2018 at 11:35 pm

    I’m happy about this development, I pray many will donate to see fruition of this project.
    As a depressed person myself,I know what others feel n go through each day, is not an easy journey, very tough.
    I grew in an unhappy and broken home,my mum died as a result of the abused she suffered from my dead, thorough beatings and verbal abuse.
    I wish I was old n strong enough to help her buh I was just 9 and pretty helpless myself.
    Dad remarried and abandoned us with our maternal grandma,. it’s been struggle, pain and, sorrow ever then.
    I’m 20 now and still struggling with depression, the future seem bleak.
    I have nobody to talk to cause nobody truly will understand, even me I don’t understand me.
    I just hope to make it out of this alive, this is beyond me.
    need someone to talk to nw, pls reach me on 07064625761

    • Honey

      March 17, 2018 at 2:00 am

      Please be strong Ude. Big hugs ?

  8. ude

    March 16, 2018 at 11:35 pm


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