Hollywood Actress Gabourey Sidibe opens up on Weight-loss Surgery, Dealing with Depression, Anxiety & More in her Memoir “This is Just My Face: Try Not to Stare”

Hollywood Actress Gabourey Sidibe is set to release her memoir – “This is Just My Face: Try not to Stare” in May. In it the actress is opening up about undergoing weight loss surgery, going through depression, anxiety and dealing with bulimia.

Read excerpts from her book below!

On why she had weight loss surgery:

I just didn’t want to worry, I truly didn’t want to worry about all the effects that go along with diabetes. I genuinely [would] worry all the time about losing my toes. It has taken me years to realize that what I was born with is all beautiful, I did not get this surgery to be beautiful. I did it so I can walk around comfortably in heels. I want to do a cartwheel. I want not to be in pain every time I walk up a flight of stairs.

On the procedure and process:

My surgeon said they’d cut my stomach in half. This would limit my hunger and capacity to eat. My brain chemistry would change and I’d want to eat healthier. I’ll take it! My lifelong relationship with food had to change, The surgery wasn’t the easy way out, I wasn’t cheating by getting it done. I wouldn’t have been able to lose as much as I’ve lost without it.

On how she feels about her current body:

I have a goal right now, and I’m almost there. And then once I’ve got it, I’ll set another. But my starting weight and my goal weight, they’re personal. If too many people are involved, I’ll shut down.

I know I’m beautiful in my current face and my current body. What I don’t know about is the next body, I admit it, I hope to God I don’t get skinny. If I could lose enough to just be a little chubby, I’ll be over the moon! Will I still be beautiful then? Probably. My beauty doesn’t come from a mirror. It never will.

There’s nothing ugly about me. Anyone trying to convince me that I am — and it’s usually me — is wasting her time, I was in a war with my body for a long time. If I’d started treating it better sooner, I wouldn’t have spent so many years hating myself. But I love my body now.

Source: People.com