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Aunty Bella is our  agony aunt column on BellaNaija. We launched this column in the early days of BN and periodically feature issues sent in by BN readers.

We hope the BN family can offer insightful advice.

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How do you stop something that feels so good?
The allure of random naked people having sex feels good. But this cannot be right. I must have resolved to stop viewing pornography more than 10,000 times but how do I find myself back here. You can’t pray away a habit. I know, because I must have done that thousands of times. After each viewing, I feel worse than at the first view. There is something about porn that is just wrong but gives an insatiably good feeling at the same time.

I found out when I tie my stopping of viewing pornography to a time-event, I always fall. In the past decade, I must have said on every December 31st, “In this coming new year, I will never watch porn in Jesus name”. That never held it. As the first generation in history growing up with the ubiquitous availability of internet porn, there is a crazy brain circuitry that pulls you back.

The images and videos I have exposed myself to are cringeworthy and they get worse in progression. You get resistant to the normal then you need something higher to get you to feel normal again. If I watched what I see at present 10 years ago, I would have vomited.

I don’t know how to stop something that feels so good. I have read 3 – 4 different books on freeing myself on pornography. I read articles, I joined NoFap community, I’m with FightTheNewDrug movement and yet I still haven’t freed myself. There’s nothing anyone has told me that made me fully stop. I get high in the spirit for 1.5 months and just resume porn duties. I feel sad typing this but how do you stop it when it feels so good.

I have had accountability partners, I have installed Web filters; and I have broken the filters to get what I want; a temporal high; an escape from reality. I feel bad after each viewing like I have done something terribly wrong but I always feel so good during the process like an ecstatic high. I don’t know if there is anything called a porn addiction; but I swear I am confused with this thing.

It is on my mind when I am not looking at it, I’m teleported to a different world when I look at it, I feel dead when I’m finished looking at it. I become a different person with my family whenever I’m about to view it or I’ve viewed it. Continuous mood swings and I don’t tell anyone about it, they just feel the sadness of my presence. This has nothing to do with having a partner or a spouse. My life feels stagnated when I’ve viewed it, but I still go back. Is this a Village matter. Now I’m sober, I can write and think through. I just wish it can be like this all through.

At least I am here still trying to take a hold on reality and putting a halt on this train. There are so many people who can’t differentiate reality from their virtual desires anymore. It seems that is where the train leads to ultimately if you do not get off on time. The responsibility for halting lies on me alone, I’m just so confused on how to do it.

Before I leave, here is some quick math, in 2017 there were 28.5 billion visits to a popular porn site, that’s 900 visits per second. 68 years of pornographic content was uploaded on this same site in the span of one year. [68 years of video content in one year – who is creating this stuff??].

One of the other most popular porn website ranks number 16 in top sites viewed in Nigeria. Do you know what number 16 is? It means almost everyone that will read this article on BellaNaija also watches Porn in one way or another. It means majority of people who say they do not watch it are lying. It means porn is way prevalent than anybody thought. It means in a congregation, there is a major dose of porn viewers, your spiritual leader, Pastor, Imam probably watches porn, your Commissioners, Ministers, Secondary school students, Lecturers, Fulani herdsmen, anyone with an internet connection too e.t.c. This particular porn site’s ranking is higher than GTBank’s ranking, Konga’s ranking, Interswitch’s ranking, LINDA IKEJI’s ranking!!!!!And this is just ONE SITE, not to mention the other many sites.

Apart from Youtube/SM, this porn site is the heaviest in terms of video and data usage in Nigeria; meaning a heavy part of data revenue accrued to Telcos is from Porn [and they know it]. Simple. Let’s not kid ourselves, something dangerous is going on but the feeling is so good that stopping doesn’t look like an option.

I’m just looking for a way to gradually phase out my hook on pornography. Resolutions, Cold-turkey, Prayers have not worked for me and that’s why I concluded that they are not enough to break habits. If there is any psychologist that has an answer to my title (How do you stop something that feels so good?), Kindly leave a response in comments. If you can, please indicate you are a psychologist.

OK, waiting to read the advices, the insults, the ‘I don’t watch it o’ in the comments. For the other millions of people going through this same issue, I don’t have an answer on how to stop. I am still learning and I have to learn fast before this train leads me somewhere else and my relatives get tired of being patient with me. We are in this together as we are the first generation growing with this ubiquitous access to porn. I think NCC and Telcos may be able to help SLIGHTLY by creating an opt-in strategy [I’m not saying they should restrict people’s freedom to view anything and I’m not saying they are responsible for your own habits/choices], but they can help with safeguards in place. The default service will have porn blocked and If you want porn available from your internet service provider, you need to write an OPT-IN letter, [they activate you and you can watch your porn]. This way the government won’t infringe anyone’s rights and its not available for unsuspecting eyes.

On 2nd thought, Is this a hopeless battle?

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32 Comments

  1. Addicted to

    January 26, 2018 at 2:56 pm

    I have an addiction to food. How do I conquer it, please reply with tips and/or advice. tia has

    • The real dee

      January 27, 2018 at 4:34 am

      Drink Apple cider vinegar diluted in water, you won’t be so hungry.
      If you still have problems, then go and get your teeth locked.
      Also, find someone you can be accountable to, who will scold you or encourage you when necessary.

  2. whocares

    January 26, 2018 at 3:04 pm

    cue bible passages in 3,2,1,….
    also LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I know, i know this is serious as some people truly suffer from porn addiction but still LMAOOOOOOOOOOO- its actually called “no fap community”?. LMAOOOOOOOO
    you installed webfilters, and hacked your own damned self to break it – LMAOOO. OK ok, i’m done laughing.
    Just in response to a point you made about blocking internet services etc- i dont think its anyone’s positive duty to prevent you from watching porn.. and imagine the nuisance for the rest of us?. ok now to solutions.. maybe if you first stop viewing it as something dirty etc, the “allure” of it for you will reduce? Like in the Netherlands, weed is easily accessible and they have the least drug problem there. something like that. You view it for what it is, male and female copulation. not dirty etc, and maybe it wont seem so “alluring” or kinky than watchign your mummy and daddy have sex? Aside from the societal issues and psychological issues with porn ie… immersion therapy is also another thing to try? watch as much as you can in a short window until you cant take it anymore and the thought of it then will disgust you? sort of like the law of diminished returns in economics.. there is only so much satisfaction you will derive from something before it stops being satisfactory or enjoyable?
    personally, i don’t think you have a problem unless you find yourself in a cubicle at work or other places besides your house and bedroom err working away.. do you? if so, just get professional help. BN isnt the place for you.
    once more- LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*wipes away tears of mirth* thanks for this bro or sis..

    • Jane

      February 6, 2018 at 12:07 pm

      Makes sense. Stop being so hard on yourself or it would drive you insane. You need to trivialize it . Stop making it seem like it has some power over you. Take one step at a time to solve this and don’t stop praying + fasting to overcome it.
      I noticed you tried to justify your watching it because other people do. Dragging everyone with you Lol. This mentality won’t help you. You are not other people and You want to stop it. So forget about people that find it thrilling and do your bit to stop yours. Don’t forget one step at a time, each day as it comes

  3. Deleke

    January 26, 2018 at 3:05 pm

    God will help those with this problem, its a prayer I sincerely offer.
    What triggers your addiction though? Loneliness? Lack of activity? Idleness? or Restleness?

    I won’t even deny that I don’t watch it, but mine is sparingly, only to complement my non-action hahaha. The perks of having an always-tired-not-in-the-mood wife

    • Temi ba mi

      January 26, 2018 at 4:22 pm

      Deleke, I am also an always-tired-not-in-the-mood wife and I feel sooooooooooo guilty about it but I’m helpless, just like the poster.

      I typically have these plans in my head of how I’ll get home and be willing and able to have that “good time”, I even dream up some freaky fun behavior that I plan to unleash on my hubby but when it comes to it, I just want to be left alone to sleep.

      I don’t want to derail his/her post further so let me stop here, it’s just that your comment made me think. I might send in this matter, as my own dear Aunt Bella topic soon.

      Dear Poster, I hope you find a specialist and some good suggestions come through.

    • Deleke

      January 26, 2018 at 6:30 pm

      Wow, credit to you for owning up and being honest about it. My question is, is it a physical thing or a mental thing? Like you said, you cook up all ideas in your head what u wanna do, then when it comes to it, you rather snooze. Cos to be fair, I still cannot understand why it is like that, this is 2018, 3rd year in the running and still ain’t nothing happening Cap’n , what shall a brother do???

    • Honey

      January 27, 2018 at 5:53 am

      I’m like ur wife but I manage to make it a point to give hubby action, I even initiate it sometimes even though I’m not in the mood.
      Now I need to be frank with u. Ur wife just doesn’t enjoy sex. She was most likely circumcised, just like I was. U have to
      Work hard to make her enjoy it. Get sex toys, massage the tiny bit left of the severed clit, long foreplay etc. I honestly struggle too but because I know it’s not hubby’s fault, I try to make some effort. Trust me, no one will say no to sex if they enjoy it.

    • My 2 cents

      January 27, 2018 at 5:00 pm

      Deleke, I think there may be some underlying issues that need to be addressed between both of you if truly your wife is never in the mood. What was the relationship like when you guys were dating, and what changed since then? 3 years is too early for this kind of thing.

  4. Me

    January 26, 2018 at 3:28 pm

    Too beautifully written to seem real. It could have just being a normal BN article, not a fabricated ask Aunty Bella story.

    Porn addiction is real, like many other addictions. Even those without “addictions” have their own demons. Nobody Holy pass, may God help us all.

  5. B

    January 26, 2018 at 3:42 pm

    I’ve been where you are. Rising out of and falling right back into that temptation. The aftertaste… numb, bitter, black; the guilt and the shame… all these feelings, the sincere tearful prayers for forgiveness from God. An yet, still falling back into the temptation to watch porn and then masturbate again.

    Now, seeing that I can’t do it by myself, I’ve decided to number my days and take each day at a time. Say a simple prayer asking God to give me grace to live above sin for just today… when tomorrow comes, we’ll ask for another grace.
    More importantly, guarding my thoughts and things I see or hear. I deliberately avoid anything (visual or audio) that can trigger these stirrings. My train of thought is wild so i’m always careful to ensure it doesn’t derail.
    Overall, I ask the Holy Spirit to dwell in me whilst I act as though God is always looking over my shoulder (abi i’ve asked Him to always be my guide???)

  6. SoniaPaloma

    January 26, 2018 at 4:00 pm

    Take a pen and paper and, write down how many times you watch it a day or week or month (depending on how frequent you watch it)
    Now, start by reducing it daily, Lets say you watch it every day. Make an effort to pick one day of the week and not watch it, write this down every week for the first month. On the 2nd month, make an effort to pick two days you dont watch it in a week and note that down for that month, continuously work towards reducing the days you watch it. While doing this, substitute those days you have picked not to watch it for another hobby, it might be catching up on series, hanging out with family, et al
    The problem is trying to break an habit instantly when it is already and addiction, it will never work. You have to ween yourself off it like a breastfeeding mother weening her child off breast milk. Good luck and I hope you get off it like you so desire 🙂

  7. Oriana

    January 26, 2018 at 4:15 pm

    I actually don’t see anything wrong in watching pornography. It’s for adults like drinking,smoking, weed etc. As long as it does not hinder you from completing your daily activities. What I hate is the hypocrisy of it. I mean when people condemn pornstars and prostitutes I get so mad. These people won’t exist if there was no demand. I can’t remember the last time I watched porn. I have never been addicted to it though. When I’m busy like my life has been in the past few years, I don’t even remember things like that. If you’re addicted then that’s a problem. I watched it for quite sometime but it gets boring fast jare and who has time now when there’s always one series to catch up on. I honestly don’t see the big deal in watching pornography. If you’re in a relationship and your partner does not like it then you guys might need to come to a compromise. I don’t see any big deal in engaging in any adult behaviour that does not hurt anybody. Most of the movies people watch have pornographic contents anyway. I feel the same way about masturbation and even gambling once in a while for fun. You are an adult and self control is expected. The argument about it affecting your sex life does not even hold. How many series has affected your lives? Abrg week help if you’re addicted o jare. Some people watch open and other dont. Variety is the spice of life.

    • Della

      February 1, 2018 at 11:55 am

      I feel like choking you to death!? If you are not addicted as you posted here, then don’t comment on it, saying you see nothing wrong with it. Let those of us deeply affected share our experience on this matter. It’s not something for those who are not addicted. The argument that it’s for adult and that self control is expected is lame. How do you exercise self control when you are addicted to something? Walk in my addiction shoe for one week and you will appreciate what we are going through.
      What about you saying pornstars and prostitute won’t exist if there was no demand for it. There was no demand for it. That demand was created by the very people behind the porn industry and impose on us. And because sex is human greatest weakness, the porn industry has come to stay and is profitable, making billions of dollars in revenue.

  8. Weezy

    January 26, 2018 at 4:17 pm

    Is this an actual aunty bella question? It reads very much like an article to educate readers instead of ask for help.

    That said, in case the author is for real (and not trying to shame others for watching porn), I have some questions for you. 1) Are you male or female? 2) Are you sexually active offline or a virgin? 3) Do you live in Nigeria (I assume so)? 4) Are you currently happy with your life? Excluding your online habits, are you content about where your life is going? Do you live with family/parents? 5) Besides the time you spend on the porn, what about the content bothers you?

    Each of these questions will shape how you address the issue. Eg. if you are female you probably feel especially disgusted at yourself because you think women aren’t supposed to watch porn and you are the only woman in the country that does so. Basically you’ve got to reduce the shame you feel about it. That shame is feeding the “addiction” and will make you feel even more cut off from the rest of society. There is a book I would recommend, but I don’t know how you will get it if you;re in Nigeria. Maybe you can google and see if he has articles online. Its by Thomas Horvath, called “Sex, drugs, gambling, chocolate”. He is a clinical psychologist who discovered that addiction can be applied to anything – you can be addicted to food, video games, porn, vodka, skin picking, etc etc. His theory is that instead of shaming yourself and over-identifying with the label “addict”, you just need to learn how to deal with cravings. His work focuses on helping people deal with the cravings for whatever substance they are addicted to. If you want it, drop an email and I will see if I can get it for you the next time I’m visiting Nigeria, sometime this year.

  9. lolo

    January 26, 2018 at 4:41 pm

    I used to be in your shoes. In my case I was a virgin until I got married few months ago and the urge to watch porn died completely. It felt so good during but I felt dead and useless afterwards. I really don’t know the remedy for this cos I tried it all too.

  10. ugh!

    January 26, 2018 at 5:54 pm

    I remember hearing a story about a man who was hooked on porn and one day while watching alone, according to him something jumped into him and since then he has not been himself. When i read online about Mary.K. Baxter’s personal experience of heaven and hell, i made up my mind that NOTHING in this short life is worth going to hell for; for all eternity.

  11. ...,,

    January 26, 2018 at 6:44 pm

    From a rescued addict.. only you have the power to stop it. You own your mind. Control it.. if you are a Christian also take this advice. Imagine someone always asking for forgiveness for doing the same wrong, now imagine how you look in front of God. When your done and have to ask for mercy. You where spot on when you described the high you feel while watching, and the disgusting feeling when you done. So true..
    Solution take control of your mind. You walk when you decide to walk, you eat when you decide to, you have control and power. Own it.

  12. Engoz

    January 26, 2018 at 7:37 pm

    I have no advice whatsoever. Just like drugs- food and sex activate the reward centers of the brain. You can also be addicted to anything. Some people take addictive substances and are disgusted, some do it as recreation, and some can’t do with out. The people who can’t do without it are your addicts. Current research is leaning towards addiction as a brain disease and having a genetic component. Addicted individuals often show some brain regions with different brain patterns from normal people. Wish there was background information to tell us if your addiction to porn is as a result of the availability or non availability of sex. You just might not be an addict. You just want to cum. lol. Just keep on doing the things you’ve been doing to overcome your addiction.

  13. www.thelmathinks.com

    January 26, 2018 at 7:56 pm

    Dear poster, i wish I had tips on how you can be cured of your addiction, i don’t. I just wanted to say you write so well and you’re obviously pretty intelligent. There’s so much that’s good in you! I hope you get the help you need.

    I’ve been where you are, although mine was cigs, my dependence on it was out of this world and my health was at stake. Contrary to what you said, it was prayers that cured mine. Not just the regular prayers oh, at some point I had to do a 6-6 21 day fasting and prayer program. My prayer main was that i should develop a strong hatred for cigarettes, so much so that I would no longer be able to stand the smell or sight. Guess what, at 6.15pm on the 21st day, just after i broke my fast, the first thing I did was to run to a mallam and buy a pack of Benson & Hedges. LOL. But one day some 3 months later I noticed I’d had a pack in my bag that was still full because i wasn’t smoking it, i literally couldn’t. Just like I prayed I suddenly hated it so much. I didn’t smoke for a couple of years after that, until one yeye heartbreak made me pick a stick again. However, the habit was so easy to drop so dropping it wasn’t a problem. Good luck, don’t put so much pressure on yourself please. ?

  14. Rescued

    January 26, 2018 at 10:33 pm

    Well done for being open and asking for help, it’s the first sign of courage. I had a similar problem and the only way I got over it was by educating myself on the actresses who act in these movies. Many of them are victims of child abuse, trafficking, pimps, etc.

    No woman who was brought up with a good sense of her true worth would want to expose herself like that. And as daughters of God, created in His beautiful image, women are gems to be treasured, not degraded. As I looked at this from God’s point of view and and how His heart must be broken when His irreplaceable daughters are deceived/manipulated to act these movies, I began to become uncomfortable.

    I also listened to former pornstars reveal the dirty side of the industry and its not all glam as its made up to look. The bosses who call the shots make money off the backs of these desperate ladies. Would they do this to their own daughters? Would I want to view a loved one doing this? Each of those girls is someone’s precious daughter.

    Besides this is your battle, the cons outweigh whatever pros you are getting. Fight this battle like an enemy, it’s already stealing your peace of mind. God has given us enough grace to resist, but you are responsible for your choices. You can do it, little by little, day by day. Learn from former addicts too. I wish you well.

  15. TOLU

    January 26, 2018 at 11:14 pm

    I’d recommend reading Captured by a Better Vision by Tim Chester

  16. joy

    January 27, 2018 at 2:55 am

    1. prayers do help. Pray specifically that God should help you and take away the urge, in Jesus name.
    2. even if you fall, pick yourself up and try again. sometimes after going one month or so, you make a mistake and fall back. Mistakes will happen, just pick yourself up and try again.
    3. I’ll have to emphasize prayer. That was the only thing that helped when I was fighting my addiction, and now I have been free many years.

  17. Recovering

    January 27, 2018 at 3:11 am

    I completely understand the feeling. I too used to be addicted to it…include pornographic/romance novels. I prayed for years until one day while i was praying i realized i couldn’t do it on my own. I needed the help of the Holy Spirit. Esp cos I had tried so many times and failed. The feeling of guilty and shame is real. Keep on praying and trusting God. Never stop because even though it seems impossible, I am a testimony that with God it is possible. Granted every now and again I will catch myself falling back but God has been soooo faithful and merciful. I’m gonna be honest and say the feeling never completely goes away. It’s an urge I always fight against, but oh boy has it become sooooo much easier to resist. Also, I think it’s important to understand the character of God. He is our loving father! Each time we repent he lovingly takes us bad without keeping any record of wrong. ZERO record of wrong! That means he doesn’t care if you ask him to forgive you 100 times in one day as long as each time you are sincere because it’s your heart he’s after. Another thing that has helped me is whenever I get the urge I try my best to remind myself and focus on the feeling of shame and disgust I know will come if I give in to my desire. This helps to diminish the appeal of its temporary high, and I convince myself that a momentary feeling of pleasure is not worth my happiness for the rest of the day/week. The advises that have been given regarding finding another hobby or something else to fill your time is a very good one because boredom is the devils playground. I also liked the slow transition by reducing the quantity watched each day. Best of luck! And please remember no temptation has befallen you that is not common to man…BUT GOD is faithful!

  18. Ree

    January 27, 2018 at 4:47 am

    I’m a married woman.
    I watch porn about 3 times a week.
    Straight porn, lesbian porn, I like it all.
    I don’t think its wrong at all.
    I enjoy it.
    I doesn’t affect my sex life with hubby. In fact we try some of it.
    I think the guilt and empty feeling that most people refer to is because we have been told its a sin.
    I personally don’t think so.

  19. Ray

    January 27, 2018 at 8:30 am

    I have been where you are, who knows? Maybe even worse. You’re addicted to a lot of things not just the porn and masturbation. These things all work together to keep you down. You’re actually a slave, bound in chains! and until you wake up you’ll never be free. Until you wake up and realize who you are you’ll never be free.

    You cannot wake up by yourself anyway. You say prayers didn’t work but that is what worked for me. Jesus saves me and delivered me from this, and gave me freedom. After which my life has never been the same. What Jesus will give you is the power to break free and the knowledge of the “truth”. The truth basically is Who you are. Once you realize your identity as to why God died for you, you will know His love and your worth. Once your eyes open to that, you’ll realize you’re the one in control. Not your body, not your mind. Of course we know it’s demonic influence doing everything to keep you down, but you you have power and authority over it. One key mindset you must have is the mindset of salvation. Stop calling yourself by your old name. Words are powerful. Say to yourself “I am not a porn addict! I am a child of God” “I am no longer a slave to sin because Jesus had died for me! I am a child of God and sin is no longer my master”

    Here’s what I did; I fasted and was determined to chase the enemy out. It is you who has to take your victory by faith bro/sis because you have been given the authority to do so. You have to treat this as a spiritual battle by emptying yourself of all flesh. That’s what fasting does. Fast and pray till you wake up one day and you’re no longer a porn addict. Finally, don’t listen to those who tell you it’s not a sin. They do not know what sin is. This is evil twisted and convoluted. A powerful force of the kingdom of darkness to keep people down and oppressed. But you can break free if you surrender your life to Jesus. He will take care of you. IF YOU TRULY surrender your life, not one leg in one leg out, you will receive your freedom. As did I.

  20. Naruto Kun

    January 27, 2018 at 2:31 pm

    There’s a book I read that greatly helped me in that area. It’s called “the power of right believing” by Joseph Prince. You could try it

  21. mr. mind

    January 27, 2018 at 3:25 pm

    personally I think it’s a thing of the mind. prayer could help and maybe abstinence but not for long cos everywhere you turn reminds you of sex Tv, radio, movies, music, fb, IG, even walking on the street there’s somebody not properly dressed or something.

    I thought i was gonna outgrow it or when I started having sex the desire for porn would stop, but I was so wrong although it did reduce but didn’t stop it and sex then turned to a new addiction. I started battling with porn, mastubation and premarital sex. Just the sight of a well shaped boobs or a pooping nipple is trouble (I’m a boobs man) and I wanna grab my phone and log on to “the site”

    But by Gods grace its like the urge switch was turned off I don’t get freaked by all of those things anymore and I know it can only be God cos tbh I didn’t do anything extraordinary, I still watch series with nude sex scenes and all.

    its all in the mind…if you don’t feed it, it won’t grow and if it doesn’t grow it eventually dies.

    • Della

      February 1, 2018 at 10:51 am

      In as much as it’s of the mind, it’s very spiritual! It feels like there a force of a kind that can’t be resisted and pushes you to watched porn mustarbate.

  22. Brian

    January 28, 2018 at 1:49 am

    I spent 10 years researching a way to overcome pornography viewing, exploring 12-step programs in depth (they work from some, but not for many and have a high relapse rate) and many other approaches, both academic and spiritual.. My research led me to develop a program like no other. Its foundation is cognitive behavior therapy applied in a unique, but effective way.. In fact, some parts of the program are the exact opposite of many programs and experts recommend.

    At the urging of those who succeeded with the program after failing time after time with every other program, I put the program in a book, entitled Power Over Pornography. You can find it on Amazon or get it for free (small shipping and handling fee) at freebook.poweroverpornography.com. This book will change your life.

  23. Della

    February 1, 2018 at 10:44 am

    I’m in tear as I’m reading this article. It speaks so much about me. It is a portrait of my porn and maturation addiction experience. Have been addicted to porn and maturbation for more than decades which led to memory loss and blurry vision. My poor life now is as a result of this addiction. People porn destroyed my life while those behind it are making billions of dollars in revenue. Working on setting up an anti porn campaign group to fight against this devil. The Internet is a place of hell now, awashed with nude pictures and video of beautiful ladies. Apart from dedicated porn sites, they are also on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook etc. They are everywhere! Thought of ending my life on multiple occasions but my poor divorced mother is the reason I’m still alive. I think porn is more addictive than cocain because those pictures and videos are always on your mind and keep pulling back into watching porn again and again. I wish I never got to know anything like porn. How did the world get here? And how did I get here? Is there a way of escape! I just want to be a free man so I can fly. I feel caged!

  24. eniola

    June 2, 2018 at 6:05 pm

    Well,
    it requires time to do away with addictions.

    There are certain you need to start practising one of which is to ensure you ar nt idle.

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