Tanzanian artiste, Vanessa Mdee, gets candid on a new episode of her podcast “Deep Dive with Vanessa Mdee“. The star talks about her journey into the entertainment industry and her struggles with anxiety, depression, and alcoholism.
Vanessa Mdee gets emotional as she talks about the challenges she faced as a woman in the entertainment industry and says that even though she loves music and it is a part of her she has “no desire to do anything that is music industry related”.
Speaking on her anxiety and depression, Mdee says;
“More than ever I had moments of anxiety, I had moments of depression, I had moments of what to do next because this pressure is unnatural for a human being and what comes after that? This may come as a shock to many because I hid it so well but I was depressed, an alcoholic, I became a person with horrible choices and I couldn’t recognise myself anymore because I woke up everyday trying to just get by and I don’t want to get by anymore, I refuse to do it.”
On alcoholism, she says;
“You need to understand that throughout the year 2019 I drank myself to sleep every night, I am not proud of it but it is my truth.”
The artiste talks about her partner, Rotimi, and describes him as an “earth angel” whose love saved her life.
She went on to say;
“I don’t know who needs to hear this, but my mission is to be a light. I know that I would probably disappoint a few people and that’s okay, I know that my fans don’t wanna hear this but guess what I’m never gonna be too far away from you, trust me. The reason why I had to leave the industry is because I needed to choose my life, the music industry is demonic. People will tell you half-truths about what really goes on, and the truth is I just wanna be an advocate for honesty and beauty and being a sincere advocate for what facing your demons can do for you. Now my fans are probably asking themselves right now; Are you never gonna sing again? Are we never gonna hear music from you again? Are we never gonna see you perform? Let me reiterate, I love music, I love to create, I love to perform, I’m a vessel, this is what I was brought on earth to be, but maybe I was a vessel to be here in this moment to have gone through everything that I have gone through so that I can tell you most honestly the truth about things that you will never hear anywhere else.”
Listen to the Podcast Here;
On the first episode of this new season of the podcast, Vanessa Mdee and her partner Rotimi open up on their relationship and the importance of great communication in love, they share everything from how they met to how they knew they were right for each other and how their ability to communicate with each other has helped make their relationship what it is both Rotimi and Vanessa see their relationship as a blessing.
Listen to the First Episode Here:
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